Every day in the emergency department I see the aged. They come through the front door with the assorted infirmities that come with advanced years. They come through the ambulance bay when those afflictions become much worse, or suddenly change, or when they have no other way to come to us.
Some days, the ambulance entrance resembles nothing so much as a train station to eternity, with stretcher after stretcher lined up, bearing a frail, gray haired person who is struggling to breath, clutching her chest, crying in fear, screaming in confusion. It is these days, as healthcare slowly unravels, that we often ask ourselves whether so much that we do is too much. After all, we work so hard to maintain the physical form of those who have lost most or all of their mental clarity over years of decline.
Too often, family members want ‘everything done’ for individuals whose lives consist of lying on one side, unable to speak any but confused, mumbled words, dependent wholly on those caring for them in nursing facilities. It sometimes seems a cruel exercise in maintaining the living shell of a long lost memory. It sometimes seems a cost we cannot afford as a society.
And those assertions are not untrue. We spend great treasure on futility in American healthcare. Not only in the aged, of course, but mostly in that group. Many times physician and nurse conversations turn quickly to hospice, to ‘Do Not Resuscitate’ orders. Perhaps in our exhaustion we feel that death is the easiest, and the least expensive, alternative to the problems we face. This is a dark thing, but an increasingly popular idea as medically assisted suicide grows in popularity around the world. In fact, roughly three percent of all deaths in Canada today are the result of medically assisted suicide. That number is shocking, but not surprising, as Western culture celebrates the vitality of youth (ironically a group fraught with depression and anxiety) and tries to brush away and hide the inevitability of decline.
However, I have come to some conclusions as I have watched the trains of the sick and dying roll past. The first of those being the remarkable fact that I do, in fact, see those old, sick persons while they are alive.
Every day I see a very old man or woman with a disease that would have quickly killed them years before. They are in their 70s, 80s or 90s and have congestive heart failure; and have for years. (When I was in medical school that diagnosis meant you had about one year to live.)
These men and women have had colon cancer or breast cancer. They have had coronary artery bypass surgery or multiple coronary stents. They have had arrhythmia and cardiac arrest. They have had strokes and have been rehabilitated. They have survived sepsis, pneumonia and broken hips. Car crashes and falls have broken them, and they have pressed on back to life. My own father-in-law, beset with Covid-19 and two weeks on the ventilator at age 83 (with underlying Black Lung) is 86 and playing golf.
What this means is that several generations of men and women have served as the beneficiaries and victims of our clinical experimentation, of our attempts to reach past the boundaries of what we thought humans could survive. We have done remarkable things. It will be argued by some that this came at great cost. And there is no question.
However, physicians down the ages looked at dead and dying young men on battlefields and constantly thought ‘we can do better.’ Their efforts, which were doubtless viewed as futile and expensive by some, gave us modern combat medicine which saves untold lives. (And those lessons, of course, moved over into the civilian world which in some cities resembles a battlefield.)
What we are doing, as we care for our oldest and most vulnerable citizens, is pushing the envelope of illness, recovery and function. Already people who would have been bed-ridden for life have their lives given back to them with proper cardiac and stroke care. If we give them five good years, or ten, or twenty, is it worth the effort?
It may be too easy for the young to dismiss that and say, ‘well I don’t want to live that long anyway.’ Easy to say when one is on the low side of fifty. But after 50 those numbers don’t seem so old as they did before. And as love grows, so does the desire to share that love as long as possible with friends and family.
But another reality comes to mind. That is the little spoken reality that the world is depopulating more rapidly than anyone expected. Many nations are now below replacement rate. That may seem like a victory to those who have been taught to fear the population bomb. But what it really means is fewer people to do, well, almost everything.
That means fewer people to grow food, fewer people to manufacture goods, fly airplanes, drive trucks, give medical care, serve in restaurants, put in septic lines, run factories and everything else. It also means, and this is no small thing, growing old very, very alone. And while the idea of a depopulated paradise might seem delightful, it would probably be miserable and if depopulated sufficently, become unsurvivable, as specialized and interdependent as we have become.
Furthermore, skills are being lost at a shocking rate. That old man with the chest pain may be one of the few people who could still dismantle a locomotive engine and put it back together. The demented woman clutching the baby doll? In her locked away, inaccessible thoughts are decades of wisdom, and love, born of raising children and grandchildren. The man with the stroke who can’t speak? He has forgotten more mathematics and nuclear physics than most will ever know and could still run a nuclear power plant if he weren’t so afflicted. It is likely the equations still run through his mind.
And that doesn’t count the infirm welders we haven’t replaced, the broken line-men, the aged nurses too arthritic to work, the many-times wounded soldier who can’t walk but still understands battle. There is so much brilliance and skill lying untapped in those we overlook. Each one becomes just another troubling, annoying patient to put on hospice and be done with at last, so that we can move on to the ones who “count.” The young ones who know…less and less. The young ones who have not learned the lessons of their ancestors or the skills needed to survive.
Maybe the best thing we could do for the future is take our knowledge and direct it at trying harder to give longer, more functional lives to those who come to us late in life. They hold wisdom, knowledge and skills that we still need, and will need more if the news is any predictor.
All of this makes me see those people on the stretchers differently. I mean, we frantically try to conserve resources and recycle material goods but we are all too ready to toss human beings out just because the their years are too many and it might be hard to give them more.
I suspect that we may soon discover, through hard times, that they are a resource we can not longer afford to devalue. Maybe then we’ll actually try harder to prolong not only their lives but their utility and in the process, their ability to lead joyful, useful lives untethered to our medical science and our society’s too heartless attitudes toward them.
I've reached the age where I don't produce much that others would consider all that valuable. I do my volunteer work, but it doesn't add up to 40+ hours/week. It is far less skilled than the work I once did, removing, rearranging, rebuilding and resurfacing things on the human body. I think about how many years are left and keep scanning for the next "big thing" that will fill those years in a "productive fashion". I pray that I'll die with my boots on, rather than accept years of increasingly intense support for a life that is further and further restricted. I have been witness to a few medically assisted and planned exits. I've spoken with a few persons who are actively pursuing the permission and even more who have contemplated it.
I've supervised apprentices all of my working life. When I stopped working 60+ hours/week and stopped taking home a paycheck, suddenly, most of the world was no longer interested in what I had learned. I am still learning, perhaps not at the rate I once was, but as long as the brain cells fire, new knowledge creeps in.
I know that " extending life" occurs at the back end. One doesn't prolong one's youth. If you're lucky, longevity increases the length of your working career instead of simply increasing the length of your senescence. Postponing debility and senescence is a laudable goal. Once we hit the nursing home, it's time to ask whether our we are truly living or simply waiting to die. I subscribe to a few blogs and like responding; I'm sometimes amazed to learn how old some of my co-respondants are. They have obviously not stopped living, but they probably have stopped skiing, running, building houses, etc. In this post-modern age, being an active part of conversations where younger people also congregate may be the proper frontier of increasing longevity. As our virtual lives grow, perhaps we can learn to honor and appreciate those who remember "how it was back then".
As an inpatient nurse I enjoy working with the many elderly patients that are admitted. Often they need suppirt to get through a CHF exacerbation or a bout of pneumonia so the can get back to a life they enjoy. However, there are so many cases where we are performing miserable interventions in order to lengthen a miserable existence. Putting a feeding tube and catheter in a patient with dementia, which then requires restraints so that the patient won't pull them out for instance. Once they are stable we send them back to a nursing facility. Having to code one of these frail human beings feels cruel. I had to do this recently and found it so sad that the woman was not able to pass peacefully surrounded by loved ones. The family took comfort in knowing they had done everything possible. I did not.